Lucifer Headcanons

My version of Luci has depression, anxiety, abandonment issues, etc. So be cautious ⚠️

HC for Lucifer's Past

⚠️CW/TW: depression, insecurities, and mention of sh⚠️After his fall from Heaven, Lucifer was deeply depressed and he felt a strong sense of guilt.
In his eyes, Luci had ruined Lilith's life and he also had doomed the human sinners to hell. After all, if he didn't exist then Hell wouldn't exist, humans wouldn't have the option to sin, and Lilith probably wouldn't have been punished so severely.
He blamed himself for everything.
HOWEVER, his pride only allows him to show these feelings around specific people or when he's in too much of an emotional state to stop the feelings from showing.
He also feels guilty when he experiences positive feelings and/or things. He feels that his actions and how they ruined things for so many beings have made it so that he doesn't deserve good things. So, he sometimes has a hard time verbalizing it when he's having a nice time. He will smile and laugh with people, but is likely to shut down some if it's pointed out to him.I also hc that Lucifer didn't get to as much of a father to Charlie as he wanted to be. Lucifer got distant and closed down during many of his more extreme depression episodes. Lilith made it a priority to take Charlie away from him at these times and - unintentionally - left him isolated when he showed any sign of potential spiraling. At some point those signs happened quite often.
Thus, he didn't get to build a great father-daughter bond with Charlie until she got older. It wasn't intentional from Lilith and Lucifer isn't upset with her over it... She was only protecting their daughter.Lilith also never really told him why she left, but he has an assumption that - on some level - it was related to his depressive habits.HC about his sex life...
⚠️CW/TW: not super detailed, but mentioned sexual abuse⚠️Being a fallen archangel, Lucifer wasn't really human. Thus, he wasnt born with a belly button, nipples, or actual sexual reproductive organs. He used his angelic powers to give himself these things when he decided he wanted to appear more like his human friends in Eden.
He was also not created with a natural desire to breed, but he did have a desire to please.With Lilith, they had been pretty active in the bedroom, so much so that he became used to having sex quite often, almost becoming a habitual thing for the fallen angel..
Once Lilith left him, he still felt a habitual need to have sex, having been doing so for far too long to not want it. So he decided to seek demons to help him out.
He was pretty clueless about many aspects of sex since he only knew about the things he and his wife did together. This led to some demons taking advantage of their king. One case being a contract with his therapist in Hell where he gets his help and his medications in exchange for sexual favors at least once a month.
Even seven years later, he still doesn't know how to have completely safe and comfortable sexual interactions with others. He isn't great at making sure his own limits or wants are listened to as he isn't used to being asked about that and he expects to be ignored if he says he doesn't like something.
With him not being informed on how things are supposed to be, he doesn't even know anything is wrong with that. He doesn't really know about safewords, hard limits, or general boundaries during sexual interactions. He just lets people use him as they please when he find himself in their beds - wether by choice or by manipulation.
He is never really one to initiate sexual interactions, he simply goes along with it when others request or initiate those things with him.

⚠️NSFW Physical HC⚠️

○ Lucifer has scars on his wings from SH, his wings taking the majority of the damage whenever he's low enough to hurt himself in such a way.
- During a lot of his mental health spirals, the wings become a source of comfort, but also a reminder of what he once had and lost. It brings about feelings of guilt for still having the angelic wings he doesn't deserve in his mind. Thus, he will hurt his wings before anything else and then he'll use those same wings for comfort later.
- A lot of the damage is easily hidden since he has feathers and he obviously moves his wings while flying.○ He has a long and snake-like tongue and be knows how to use it.○ He consciously can change his reproductive organs if he desires, allowing him to have gentals that are male, female, or a mix of both.

General Headcanons

He has insomnia and when he can manage to sleep his dreams are often nightmares.
Luci typically uses his wings to protect or comfort himself when he's sad, afraid, or lonely. He will hug himself with them to create a little 'cocoon' of safety.
With his angel blood being gold, he blushes a yellow/gold color.
His eyes also glow a bit when he is mad, very sad, or during sex when he's extremely aroused.
He's got a soft spot for other fallen angels and, if they'll allow it, he does everything he can to support them through adapting to the fall.
He has a hard time admitting his more positive feelings, feeling guilty and afraid over them sometimes.
Being the literal Devil, he can't die. But, he can get hurt and/or sick. His main weaknesses would be angelic weapons (obviously) and extreme cold temperatures (due to being partially a snake).

More to be added later

I never seem to run low on ideas, so things are subject to change or to be added to this later.

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